So......
Today (10th Feb) was an interesting day. I woke up a little earlier than normal say around 11 compared to my 12:30 - 1:00 normal times, maybe it's because Ellen is on at 12 and I don't want to miss her ha ha. But yeah I woke up and you might not like this but I went to the toilet as per normal and as I was urinating it hurt, a little unusual I thought but I continued on. So not long after I discovered more than urine was coming out, it was blood! Ergh doesn't sound to good does it?
I freaked a little because I didn't know what could've caused that, so I googled a little bit and pretty much didn't get an answer so basically if there is a repeat, the doctor is a must see!
Onwards and upwards from that tale.......I had for breakfast of sorts Percy Pig'n'Pals simply because I was too lazy to eat. I watched Ellen and really enjoyed it, she had Justin Bieber on and for once I put away my judgements and discovered this kid is really switched on, has a mature perspective and attitude towards certain things that will and have been cast his way. He has surrounded himself with great, supportive people and I'm sure this kid will definitely have a great career.
After watching tv for a bit I sat on my Mac and randomly chose to use the Faces tool in Iphoto so did that for a little bit and then my friend came around and we decided to go for a walk at Paradise Point. Which was great, many a time I have passed this park area but never ventured to walk it. So we meandered along and discovered that at one point they have built steps to serve as a wall along the shore, it looks pretty cool and allows you to get close to the water as the tide pushes it along.
We continued on and found a tree, we climbed it and sat looking out over the water and towards Ephraim Island, it was very relaxing and it was certainly enjoyable to climb a tree something I haven't done in a long time!
My friend then decided she wanted to walk over the bridge near us as she loves bridges, so off we went to discover the feeling of an artificially created span across blue/green depths. We took the direction of Ephraim Island and upon our landing found it to be a nice place. Considering that my earlier thoughts was of a sterile clinical atmosphere and look to this higher living arrangement. There was this one spot where they had created a walkway that continued on out over the water, the walkway came to a point and you could see where for effect great blocks of concrete had been placed to create an artificial reef of sorts and to some extent it was a success for there were various fish attracted to these man made rock shelfs.
We continued along towards a grassed area and took rest, well I did anway not due to the fact that I'm unfit but maybe to soak in the sun and enjoy the sights. After awhile we had to leave as my friend was heading off to work and needed some rest for the night ahead.
I think this walk inspired me to go for a bike ride that and I searched around for all the change I could muster so as to buy a super-size slurpee hmmm....
Once I bought my slurpee I thought I would check out an area of development or should I say lack of which is not far from where I live, only a few streets away in fact. I rode along and tried to juggle riding a bike and sipping a slurpee, it wasn't too hard but I did have to navigate the tyres along roads strewn with rubble but I managed fine. I headed towards the canal section of this area and discovered there is a boardwalk, it isn't very long but there was a bench which I found and I contented myself to finishing my slurpee and taking in the surrounding area. A bonus to finding this bench, there was a bin so I could responsibly dispose of my rubbish. Would you say thoughtful citizen there?
After the awesome beverage I thought to continue on and discover this canaled island of sorts, riding down one of the roads I saw that a car had left the road and there were tracks leading into the scrubby wild bush, I thought to myself I will check that out for curiosity's sake, it was certainly an interesting ride from then on. There was a huge area of sand that I thought I could ride through but alas my BMX bike just was not the right tool for the job, I continued along and found the rest of the landscape uninteresting I guess due to the fact that all this land was destined to be for a houses foundations so nothing exciting would be upon the face of that. One thing is for sure where there is vacant land there is rubbish, it either being construction rubbish or rubbish of lazy opportunistic people.
From that point on I decided to ride along the service road that runs parallel to Broadwater Avenue, which eventually takes me to a place called Boykambil. Boykambil is located south east of where I last was and it is a section of land that ends and is divided by a waterway, yet in saying that Boykambil is also an island of sorts, as this waterway winds its way around this area and eventually meets up with a canaled estate called Oyster Cove I think not 100% percent sure but I think it's the right name of this place. So I rode along and found near the boat ramp a rockwall I rode along it and chilled for a bit taking in this area too, after pausing I continued along the footpath heading towards to bridge that links Boykambil/Hope Island to Jabiru Island which then joins Paradise Point.
I went under the bridge and took the street running parallel to the river as it curved another street came off it and it was a no through road, so I thought let me see what the end of this road looks like ha. I found as I was rolling along some very nice properties with huge expanses of land and direct access to the river that wound its way around this apparent island. It's amazing when you discover some real gems of housing in some unusual areas such as this. Along the road I also saw an area of bush it had the like of Douglas Firs in it and the usual native gums and what not, I made a note to check it out on my way back.
I pressed on and did find the end of the street and it was as uninteresting as a blank piece of paper. I turned around and bee lined for the gap in the tree I spotted earlier, there was just one hindrance though, as I rode to this spot two cars were parked on the road next to each other with both occupants chatting. So knowing that at anytime they might come along and I would be midway into entering this gap in the tree line I casually pedaled along glancing back to make sure my timing would be right, as soon as I spotted my place I quickly strolled in with bike in tow and tried to get as deep in the trees as I could, this being so as my shirt was white and was sure to be spotted with ease.
Now this place had in interesting look to it, the floor was littered with pine cones, pine needles and various other rotting or broken branches/twigs. So every step was a crunchy one. As I looked forward there were many paths that I could take, this due to cleared areas. I pretty much stuck to a straight path but veering to the left, after about 50 metres I saw two large ruts in the ground, which looked like an excavator had become stuck in the soft ground, but there were no other tracks leading into or out of these ruts. I put it down to a mystery and continued along.
After about I would say 150 or more metres I came across a black pond, now this pond was definitely stagnant as not even a hint of wind pushed a ripple across it, that and the fact that it looked thick like soup. I almost half expected a crocodile or some horrible creature to arise from it sensing my presence on the shore. I picked up a stick and threw it in and the result, a soft splash and then bubbles rising on the surface and that was it, no creatures of any kind come to reconcile their peace being disturbed. I looked at this pond and thought it would be a great place for a murdered victims body. Now this in itself is an interesting thought to have as I am not in the slightest inclined to such behaviour, being the loving good natured man that I am. But all the same I think the thought came to pass as it would be a great location for that of a murder story, purely fictional of course. And perhaps I will use it.
Now I had to hurry along for this pond was not only disgusting but it was a breeding ground for mosquitos and I had already being bitten a few times so I idled no longer and resumed. For reasons unknown I had a though to continue straight but bearing to my right, and upon reaching the roadside I'm glad I followed that instinct as I found to my left further along close to the road there was as huge section of fetid water, so had I continued bearing left I would have happened upon this obstacle and even I think accidentally wandered into it. Which I can assure you would have been quite unpleasant.
I found myself on a road that ran again parallel to Broadwater Avenue but was on the south side, the side in which a Freedom fuel station was located and I was on the back entrance to this very station. At the end of this road to my left a huge section of earth had been piled up, this was due to the fact that they at some point later on are planning to join another section of road. This pile of earth which I must say had been piled so well as to create a look of a pyramid but with the top third cut off. This I again saw a place to discover, I dragged both myself and bike up to the top and found it to be fairly flat and easy to navigate. I have seen this earthly pile from the roadside and wondered what it was and now I had come to the knowledge of what it was.
I rode along the top and eventually came to it's end, the end been where a new road was being created at ground level. I descended below and took to riding on the newly laid road base which had been packed tight. I continued along and came to a section which had been watered down due to recent activity, now at one point on this virgin road there was what appeared to be the beginning of a round-a-bout, and I could see that a branch of this led to the existing intersection of Broadwater Avenue closest to McDonald's and the 7-11. Now I thought to start heading home and my course was to head towards an estate called Halcyon Waters,which I knew this road joined up to, but there was an obstacle before me. One there was a gate and I thought it unchained but as I got closer it appeared to be chained and locked, not only that but near the site office there was still a ute parked and I thought if I choose this way I'm bound to be questioned if I make a rattle of the chains or some attempt at exit.
So I decided to go the hard way, the hard way been go back the way I came. It wasn't really difficult to be honest, but it meant I would have to backtrack to get home. This I did and just as I got to another set of lights, the rain came down. I took shelter at the BP and once it had cleared I headed straight home with a shower in mind!
I arrived back at the apartments and thought while I'm at it I might as well have a cruise around this place in which I live, there are some areas I've never thought or needed to see. As I rode around I found that where I live is quite nice, ha imagine that. So in doing that I have a new appreciation of the beauty of where I live, not only this apartment complex but of this suburb that I am part of too.
It's interesting what you discover when you're not in a car. Our legs can take us places that something with wheels can't.
So with that said I plan to discover more new places with these perfectly useful devices attached to my torso. As they really are advantageous.
Enough adventures for one day and hopefully plenty more to come.
Cheerio
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Woah
So the following is a blog I wrote on MySpace of all places.....yes MySpace. I wrote it on the 11th of December 2007. That is a long time ago, well feels like it anyway!
So I'll just copy and paste it here, fix the grammatical errors and non-use of capital letters etc! And you can let me know what you think, this is kind of a lazy way to write todays blog, but hey not often you re-discover something you wrote on the interwebs right?
So I'll just copy and paste it here, fix the grammatical errors and non-use of capital letters etc! And you can let me know what you think, this is kind of a lazy way to write todays blog, but hey not often you re-discover something you wrote on the interwebs right?
Well this is my first ever blog, I've had myspace for like 2 years and never made a blog, well here goes!
Just a thought i've had........
Life is but a dream, cause your dreams when you sleep is your real life, have you ever considered that life actually starts after death, I bet everyone when they have a dream, all things within that dream are perfect; love, happiness, joy, friendship, family and all other things in life, and then you wake up and all those things you were just thinking dissipate like mist, maybe everyone should listen to their dreams more because dreams are what motivate us in life, they cause us to make decisions we would never have thought of before, to dream is to live.
Another point, if dreams are our real lives, why do we need so many material objects, what happiness does an xbox360 bring to our lives, nothing, for me anyway. An xbox is not as engaging as listening to a friend make a point or cast a perspective on any given subject, people need to talk more, express views and opinions, and when this is happening, don't cast doubt on their view, you can learn so much about a person when you truly listen to them, you feel what they feel, think what they think, you live through them, in doing this you gain knowledge and wisdom, and mature as a person yourself, you gain greater understanding of people and what happens in this world. Also I think it naive to believe that there is only one existence, does anyone ever think that they are exisiting somewhere else at the same time as now but still in the one place, do our bodies only lead us to believe that we are exisiting in one moment, consider this our body, is made up of matter, condensed light they say, are we not travelling then at the speed of light towards a destination in which we know nothing about, all I urge you to do is to stop and consider what am I exisiting for, what is my purpose, what can I bring to the people I do know and those I am yet to meet, the mind of one individual can transform the minds of masses, all you have to do is look at Einstein and Newton, if not for them we would never know about the laws of gravity and relativity, what kind of world would it be if we did not have that wisdom, also one thing, we must be loving and compassionate to one another, it hurts and breaks my heart when people war at each other over small differences, our differences make us who we are, Oscar Wilde (*I first wrote Charles Dickens which is incorrect* I googled it the other day) once said "Be yourself; everyone else is already taken", what type of world would it be if everyone was the same, quite frankly boring, we must learn to love and respect others who dont think like us, but instead see what we can learn from them and vice versa.
We are all human, made of the same materials as each other, sharing one experience which is life, life is too precious to just up and kill someone cause you dont like what their saying, one more thing I implore you to consider and comprehend is where will I go after Death, what will my next life journey be of, cause life as we know it is just a small sample of what we will encounter after death, do you want love and happiness forever or hurt and pain. We know what these things are now, but Death is a one way street of either.
Hope this is good food for thought!!!!!!!!!!
So yeah that's what I wrote......not really sure what inspired it but it is certainly interesting reading something that was written 3 years ago, a good glimpse into the past and where my thoughts were!
So that's the blog for today because honestly nothing of consequence has happened since the last one.....ERGH
Ciao
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Mid-Morning
So I just got home about 10 minutes ago and decided to check my emails etc.
I grabbed a cola cordial and a cigarette and I'm currently on the balcony listening to Dusty Cole a band out of the US, who I somehow found on MySpace, cool folky acoustic rockabilly type of band.
As I look to my right I see the moon, and my it looks beautiful, it is a crescent shape right now, it's either waxing or waning not sure which, but it almost looks like the man on the moon could sitting there and rest in the comfort of its curve with one leg dangling down. The breeze is up and it's a gentle touch against my skin not chilly either.
I had an interesting day, I helped my Dad with a few gadgets that he always refers to me to understand or set up for him. We had a good ole chat about whats happening in our lives, I really enjoyed the time spent together. The level of our relationship is so much more interesting and I would say better than it used to be when I was a teenager. It seems we have become much more relatable, which is great.
After I left Dad to his own devices I met up with my friend, we headed into Broadbeach and had Max Brenner's, something I have not enjoyed for quite awhile. Thoroughly enjoyed having fondue!
We decided to go for a walk and found a bench near the kid's playground, I really wanted to have a go on the swings but it had rained heavily earlier and there were puddles beneath the swings, so we skipped that idea. I really enjoyed hanging out with her, she is so amazing and alot of fun to be around.
And now here I am blogging once again about a day in my life.
Ah right now I'm so content, this breeze and the smooth sounds of Dusty Cole, with a positive outlook on the future of this new year of 2011.
Ciao
I grabbed a cola cordial and a cigarette and I'm currently on the balcony listening to Dusty Cole a band out of the US, who I somehow found on MySpace, cool folky acoustic rockabilly type of band.
As I look to my right I see the moon, and my it looks beautiful, it is a crescent shape right now, it's either waxing or waning not sure which, but it almost looks like the man on the moon could sitting there and rest in the comfort of its curve with one leg dangling down. The breeze is up and it's a gentle touch against my skin not chilly either.
I had an interesting day, I helped my Dad with a few gadgets that he always refers to me to understand or set up for him. We had a good ole chat about whats happening in our lives, I really enjoyed the time spent together. The level of our relationship is so much more interesting and I would say better than it used to be when I was a teenager. It seems we have become much more relatable, which is great.
After I left Dad to his own devices I met up with my friend, we headed into Broadbeach and had Max Brenner's, something I have not enjoyed for quite awhile. Thoroughly enjoyed having fondue!
We decided to go for a walk and found a bench near the kid's playground, I really wanted to have a go on the swings but it had rained heavily earlier and there were puddles beneath the swings, so we skipped that idea. I really enjoyed hanging out with her, she is so amazing and alot of fun to be around.
And now here I am blogging once again about a day in my life.
Ah right now I'm so content, this breeze and the smooth sounds of Dusty Cole, with a positive outlook on the future of this new year of 2011.
Ciao
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Thursday
So another day down for the week.
Yesterday the 26th, was Australia Day. I celebrated it by joining friends at a BBQ at Philip Park just near Seaworld which is located on a part of the Gold Coast called "The Spit", a stretch of coast that forms an island where boating abounds and the better part of the foreshore is un-touched. It still retains the vegetative dunes whereas the remainder of the Gold Coast does not.
The day was very relaxing, had quite a few beers but not to the point where I was a fool, it's interesting how when you drink beer frequently during the week but no to the point of excess that your tolerance begins to get higher and higher. About two to three years ago I would've struggled to drink the same amount that I did this day. Maybe it's because my objective is not to get drunk but to slake my thirst with a fine beverage.
After the BBQ meandered over to a friends place and chatted whilst listening to Triple J's Hottest 100 of 2010. Was nice listening to tracks that I had heard over the course of the year, every song bringing back a memory, particularly while driving the truck for work. Ah the joys of driving a truck, near endless hours of listening to the radio and been entertained by the hosts. Certainly makes a lonely drive less lonely and quite comfortable. Got to a point though, not far from number one, that Ash and I decided to head home and listen to the last few songs in our own comfort, number one was disappointing. Angus and Julia Stone's "Big Jet Plane" hmm should have seen that coming, they had been high on the musical radar all last year. I even attended a gig of theirs, and admittedly they are a great band to see and hear live, plus the fact that they have some really emotionally driven tracks which I do enjoy. As for them snagging the No.1 spot well it would have been nice to hear something from left field retain the top spot.
Alas not all is as hoped for.
After the No.1 position was played, Ash myself and two of our close friends headed down to our pool and spend some considerable time getting wrinkly ha ha. Was very nice to float around, dive and just relax in the comfort of water. Something that I don't do very often, but which I think is a perfectly human activity that we all really enjoy.
Well Ash left today for Airlie Beach, dropped him off at the airport, had a little detour as I missed the turn off due to me having no idea about the new road they have had in place, to be honest I'd quite forgotten because I'd gotten so use to Perth's roads. I find it interesting that I now have a few cities and towns mapped out inside my mind. Another testament to the ability of one's brain to retain so much information.
At some point last night I decided to write a short story, something along the lines of a character (narrator) astral planing through the universe, it isn't finished yet simply because I got to the end of the Milky Way Galaxy and my knowledge of what is beyond stopped there. I did however try to use a designers website that has a "Scale of the Universe" flash program. It possibly will help, however it got quite late and I tried to make it an early night. One thing I think is that these stories sometimes are a great idea and you can get down the bulk of it and then you just pause, not quite running out of ideas for the story, but just needing more time to expand on what you have written and discover the direction in which to take the storyline.
This is story one of two that I have started, I'm sure I will get back to the other one eventually. It has a slight horror feel to it. Reason being is that I read alot of Stephen King and also Peter Straub, both of whom have collaborated over the years. I would like to write a series of short stories rather than a whole novel. I seem to come up with some tale every now and then and just plain don't have the time or drive to get it down on paper i.e the digital paper anyway.
I much prefer short stories at times to large ones, it helps to keep you stimulated mentally and you don't lose that focus. Large or epic novels tend to let you drift off and you forget the context of the entire story.
Nothing else has really occurred, I slept till 12:30 today ergh, sucks not having a reason to get out of bed. I then ventured to sit on the computer, either reading tweets or tweeting, it's funny how due to de-activating Facebook, Twitter has now become my crux. Not a bad thing though, I much prefer getting this feed of semi-relevant information than the personal crud of people I know, not to say I don't care about people but sometimes people's Facebook statuses are dull and un-interesting. I follow people and or sites that tweet interesting ideas or information regarding any number of topics and it just seems so much more fun and entertaining.
Plus with Twitter it's a nice alternative to text messaging. A few times I have had along with Ash entire conversations with friends all using tweets, it's like a collective txt message conversation, it's pretty cool. You know what, you should try it.....
Hmm....it's really nice sitting here on my balcony, it's quiet I can hear the fish jumping out of the lake, possibly catching low flying insects. The traffic of the freeway is but a distant sighing hum, the occasional car cruising along the main road behind me. One thing that I found I enjoyed today as I drove home from Southport was the sunset, my it's beautiful! It is such a true indicator of the day slowing down, drawing to a close. I imagine it would be very nice to peacefully die to a sunset, very metaphorical and symbolic. I find it funny how I much prefer a sunset to a sunrise, midway through last year I climbed Mt Warning in Northern N.S.W for a sunrise, it was truly beautiful but boy did the day feel long. Sunset at that point felt like a lifetime away.
Well I shall finish on that note, this is me enjoying the sunset of my thoughts!
Ciao
Yesterday the 26th, was Australia Day. I celebrated it by joining friends at a BBQ at Philip Park just near Seaworld which is located on a part of the Gold Coast called "The Spit", a stretch of coast that forms an island where boating abounds and the better part of the foreshore is un-touched. It still retains the vegetative dunes whereas the remainder of the Gold Coast does not.
The day was very relaxing, had quite a few beers but not to the point where I was a fool, it's interesting how when you drink beer frequently during the week but no to the point of excess that your tolerance begins to get higher and higher. About two to three years ago I would've struggled to drink the same amount that I did this day. Maybe it's because my objective is not to get drunk but to slake my thirst with a fine beverage.
After the BBQ meandered over to a friends place and chatted whilst listening to Triple J's Hottest 100 of 2010. Was nice listening to tracks that I had heard over the course of the year, every song bringing back a memory, particularly while driving the truck for work. Ah the joys of driving a truck, near endless hours of listening to the radio and been entertained by the hosts. Certainly makes a lonely drive less lonely and quite comfortable. Got to a point though, not far from number one, that Ash and I decided to head home and listen to the last few songs in our own comfort, number one was disappointing. Angus and Julia Stone's "Big Jet Plane" hmm should have seen that coming, they had been high on the musical radar all last year. I even attended a gig of theirs, and admittedly they are a great band to see and hear live, plus the fact that they have some really emotionally driven tracks which I do enjoy. As for them snagging the No.1 spot well it would have been nice to hear something from left field retain the top spot.
Alas not all is as hoped for.
After the No.1 position was played, Ash myself and two of our close friends headed down to our pool and spend some considerable time getting wrinkly ha ha. Was very nice to float around, dive and just relax in the comfort of water. Something that I don't do very often, but which I think is a perfectly human activity that we all really enjoy.
Well Ash left today for Airlie Beach, dropped him off at the airport, had a little detour as I missed the turn off due to me having no idea about the new road they have had in place, to be honest I'd quite forgotten because I'd gotten so use to Perth's roads. I find it interesting that I now have a few cities and towns mapped out inside my mind. Another testament to the ability of one's brain to retain so much information.
At some point last night I decided to write a short story, something along the lines of a character (narrator) astral planing through the universe, it isn't finished yet simply because I got to the end of the Milky Way Galaxy and my knowledge of what is beyond stopped there. I did however try to use a designers website that has a "Scale of the Universe" flash program. It possibly will help, however it got quite late and I tried to make it an early night. One thing I think is that these stories sometimes are a great idea and you can get down the bulk of it and then you just pause, not quite running out of ideas for the story, but just needing more time to expand on what you have written and discover the direction in which to take the storyline.
This is story one of two that I have started, I'm sure I will get back to the other one eventually. It has a slight horror feel to it. Reason being is that I read alot of Stephen King and also Peter Straub, both of whom have collaborated over the years. I would like to write a series of short stories rather than a whole novel. I seem to come up with some tale every now and then and just plain don't have the time or drive to get it down on paper i.e the digital paper anyway.
I much prefer short stories at times to large ones, it helps to keep you stimulated mentally and you don't lose that focus. Large or epic novels tend to let you drift off and you forget the context of the entire story.
Nothing else has really occurred, I slept till 12:30 today ergh, sucks not having a reason to get out of bed. I then ventured to sit on the computer, either reading tweets or tweeting, it's funny how due to de-activating Facebook, Twitter has now become my crux. Not a bad thing though, I much prefer getting this feed of semi-relevant information than the personal crud of people I know, not to say I don't care about people but sometimes people's Facebook statuses are dull and un-interesting. I follow people and or sites that tweet interesting ideas or information regarding any number of topics and it just seems so much more fun and entertaining.
Plus with Twitter it's a nice alternative to text messaging. A few times I have had along with Ash entire conversations with friends all using tweets, it's like a collective txt message conversation, it's pretty cool. You know what, you should try it.....
Hmm....it's really nice sitting here on my balcony, it's quiet I can hear the fish jumping out of the lake, possibly catching low flying insects. The traffic of the freeway is but a distant sighing hum, the occasional car cruising along the main road behind me. One thing that I found I enjoyed today as I drove home from Southport was the sunset, my it's beautiful! It is such a true indicator of the day slowing down, drawing to a close. I imagine it would be very nice to peacefully die to a sunset, very metaphorical and symbolic. I find it funny how I much prefer a sunset to a sunrise, midway through last year I climbed Mt Warning in Northern N.S.W for a sunrise, it was truly beautiful but boy did the day feel long. Sunset at that point felt like a lifetime away.
Well I shall finish on that note, this is me enjoying the sunset of my thoughts!
Ciao
Monday, January 24, 2011
Hiya
Well it's been an interesting few days since the last post! I have resisted the urge to re-activate Facebook, it's a tough thing to do, after a few days you begin to realise how much this social tool affects your life, considering that most of the events I attend are created on FB and so it has become my social calendar of sorts. Plus the fact that I had a correspondence of sorts with a girl I met at a friend's party and I have't replied to that yet due to a lack of interest and not having FB.
Hmm so what else, the blog I wrote the other day in regards to believing that I won't live longer than 36 I think that has always spawned from times when I get a little down, I like to think that every human on this planet has maybe thought of dying or had suicidal thoughts, not that I could have the courage to go through with it myself. I believe that I was a little depressed because of the lull in work at the moment, and my financial situation not been dire but I'm getting to a point where I really do need to get back to work. I've applied for a credit card but I haven't had any correspondence back from the bank. I have always been against credit cards but in this situation it may prove useful, I came back from with close to $2200 in the bank, which is what I managed to save in my time over there, it's a little annoying too because I said to myself,"This year Evan, manage and save your money better" well a month into the new year and I've nearly spent all those savings. Alas I am due to go to Airlie Beach for work so really finances solved, considering getting paid a bit over $1000 a week I'm sure I can get right back on track. Just got to keep faith :)
So due to the depletion of funds and pretty much having to extremely minimize my spending habits I have had to take to entertaining myself with very low cost or in-expensive activities such as reading, playing with my Lego and yes I can hear you say "What? Lego? but you're a 24 year old male", thing is Lego is wicked and as long as I'm alive I hope to own it and still play with it so yeah there! doing a bit of artwork too has helped fill in the hours, not so much TV or movie watching, I did alot of that whilst in Perth, so would like a break from it. One of the best activities is just hanging with friends, having a few beers and a light meal/dinner and enjoying their fine company. Something I've definitely tried to create so as to avoid having to go into Broadbeach, I live in an beautiful apartment and the atmosphere that is created when friends are over is comfortable and relaxed. So have definitely tried to make those opportunities more of a regular thing....
Something has happened in the last week or so, but come to more of my attention is....how do I say it, a level of love for a friend maybe becoming more. I have a little guilt although I don't think that's the right word, about how the last week has panned out, she let a friend of ours know she liked him and it wasn't reciprocated which has got her down quite a bit, and there is where my guilt of sorts has come into it, this is what I feel anyway. I have and think I can safely say, been a shoulder for her to lean on and I've been happy to do that, we need people who can provide us with comfort and strength especially while one is single. To get to the guilt (?) part of it, I keep thinking that maybe I have manipulated something along the way and I don't want that to be a dictator to how this girl feels about me or our friend.
I've literally just had to pause to figure out how to continue....ergh! I want to say more but just don't think it's the right timing. The good thing is this girl and I have had some really open dialogue, we've gotten to know each other alot more of late and I tell you this, this girl is just absolutely amazing! I feel that she sometimes doesn't think the world of herself but she really is just something beyond words, also we spoke recently about her not knowing her own beauty.
Beauty is such an interesting thing because as much as it's surface it's also in the detail and the depth of any one thing! Beauty is a grand design and I believe as humans we are all beautiful, this friend, she showed me this photography book and it had some wonderful illustrations of the beauty of people. Now some of these people had bad teeth or not very nice skin, but it was in the moment that they were captured that their true beauty shone through. They were smiling and laughing and it appeared that they had not a care in the world and that they knew love, in all of it's infiniteness!
So if this friend of mine is reading this at all, which I know she probably will at some point soon, know this that you are a rare and unique beauty because you are you and created in that very special way! From what I know of her character, inside, her heart is truly blazing with love, peace, care, grace and pure dazzling beauty, like the skies at night are a sight to gaze upon, so is she. I would even venture to say that she surpasses that brilliance!
So with that all said I will end this entry. I could continue for a lot longer but I won't. Not that I enjoy vocalizing my every thought, I just think that I would start boredom at some point.
Enjoy and accept your beauty!
Oscar Wilde wrote this Quote:
"Be yourself.....everyone else is already taken!"
That is called "Truth"
Evan J D
Hmm so what else, the blog I wrote the other day in regards to believing that I won't live longer than 36 I think that has always spawned from times when I get a little down, I like to think that every human on this planet has maybe thought of dying or had suicidal thoughts, not that I could have the courage to go through with it myself. I believe that I was a little depressed because of the lull in work at the moment, and my financial situation not been dire but I'm getting to a point where I really do need to get back to work. I've applied for a credit card but I haven't had any correspondence back from the bank. I have always been against credit cards but in this situation it may prove useful, I came back from with close to $2200 in the bank, which is what I managed to save in my time over there, it's a little annoying too because I said to myself,"This year Evan, manage and save your money better" well a month into the new year and I've nearly spent all those savings. Alas I am due to go to Airlie Beach for work so really finances solved, considering getting paid a bit over $1000 a week I'm sure I can get right back on track. Just got to keep faith :)
So due to the depletion of funds and pretty much having to extremely minimize my spending habits I have had to take to entertaining myself with very low cost or in-expensive activities such as reading, playing with my Lego and yes I can hear you say "What? Lego? but you're a 24 year old male", thing is Lego is wicked and as long as I'm alive I hope to own it and still play with it so yeah there! doing a bit of artwork too has helped fill in the hours, not so much TV or movie watching, I did alot of that whilst in Perth, so would like a break from it. One of the best activities is just hanging with friends, having a few beers and a light meal/dinner and enjoying their fine company. Something I've definitely tried to create so as to avoid having to go into Broadbeach, I live in an beautiful apartment and the atmosphere that is created when friends are over is comfortable and relaxed. So have definitely tried to make those opportunities more of a regular thing....
Something has happened in the last week or so, but come to more of my attention is....how do I say it, a level of love for a friend maybe becoming more. I have a little guilt although I don't think that's the right word, about how the last week has panned out, she let a friend of ours know she liked him and it wasn't reciprocated which has got her down quite a bit, and there is where my guilt of sorts has come into it, this is what I feel anyway. I have and think I can safely say, been a shoulder for her to lean on and I've been happy to do that, we need people who can provide us with comfort and strength especially while one is single. To get to the guilt (?) part of it, I keep thinking that maybe I have manipulated something along the way and I don't want that to be a dictator to how this girl feels about me or our friend.
I've literally just had to pause to figure out how to continue....ergh! I want to say more but just don't think it's the right timing. The good thing is this girl and I have had some really open dialogue, we've gotten to know each other alot more of late and I tell you this, this girl is just absolutely amazing! I feel that she sometimes doesn't think the world of herself but she really is just something beyond words, also we spoke recently about her not knowing her own beauty.
Beauty is such an interesting thing because as much as it's surface it's also in the detail and the depth of any one thing! Beauty is a grand design and I believe as humans we are all beautiful, this friend, she showed me this photography book and it had some wonderful illustrations of the beauty of people. Now some of these people had bad teeth or not very nice skin, but it was in the moment that they were captured that their true beauty shone through. They were smiling and laughing and it appeared that they had not a care in the world and that they knew love, in all of it's infiniteness!
So if this friend of mine is reading this at all, which I know she probably will at some point soon, know this that you are a rare and unique beauty because you are you and created in that very special way! From what I know of her character, inside, her heart is truly blazing with love, peace, care, grace and pure dazzling beauty, like the skies at night are a sight to gaze upon, so is she. I would even venture to say that she surpasses that brilliance!
So with that all said I will end this entry. I could continue for a lot longer but I won't. Not that I enjoy vocalizing my every thought, I just think that I would start boredom at some point.
Enjoy and accept your beauty!
Oscar Wilde wrote this Quote:
"Be yourself.....everyone else is already taken!"
That is called "Truth"
Evan J D
Friday, January 21, 2011
BTW
I de-activated Facebook, I honestly don't know why I do that sometimes, but hey I did it, so that with that said I am on Twitter only....follow me if you like. I'm not the most interesting on there....@EvanJ0_oD is my Twitter name.
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Well I'm just going to keep writing...as I'm bored. I could have gone to the Yatala drive in theatre, but just was not in the mood. I've kinda been feeling strange in the last couple of days, not sure if it's because I have no work and so, my mind has too much time to think over things.
I have just felt like I don't want to be around people much anymore, I spent three months in Perth and for about two months of that I was by myself, so I guess I've gotten quite use to my own company and funny thing is I like it. If bored I will just read or draw something random, put some music on and zone out, or even watch movies.
I'm not sure if I'm suffering from a small case of depression maybe, I just feel the weight of expectations from family, especially my mum. Ergh.....the relationship we have is not the best, it is certainly better than it has been in the past. It has been ages ago since I spoke or saw her, the 30th of December to be precise, the day I got back from Perth. She left me a voicemail yesterday and it was like it's P******a Drinkwater your mother here yada yada......ah why does she have to leave a message like that. She takes things to heart so much, at any point while she was up my way for work she could have said hey lets grab a coffee if you're free, so easy. But as my younger sister who lives with her has said, mum has decided not to be the one to make a move. So it seems it's almost a stand off, does it have to be? I just don't know how to feel about it anymore. I haven't got the effort anymore, which I should really maintain because relationships are all about working together.
Which brings me to the idea of a relationship with a girl, not that anything has happened recently in regards to that, there has been one girl but I can't be assed getting into that now.
I continually find myself thinking that I really am better off being single! It has so many benefits, freedom in many ways that's mostly what I think of. Maybe it's the fact that I have been so independent of thought and action for so long that having someone else in the picture is going to create extra work that I can avoid. Like people think that everyone has a soulmate etc, and maybe that's true, but I think for me yes there could be someone out there, but I'll probably just let them down ha ha. So to avoid hurt on either parties side, I'd like to just remain single. I've pretty much planned a future where it's just been me, yet if I ever do make some wise financial decisions, if I can create a degree of monetary comfort for myself, I'd like to be generous with money that I can afford to give away, in whatever way possible.
I do have a giving heart and a heart for others, I just keep it closely guarded, not sure why but it seems to be how things are.
Which brings me to another thought and it's probably going to sound crazy, yet I have a degree of comfort about it. I believe deep down that I won't live past about 36, I like that number for one, because it's even and I have a thing for even numbers, so much so that I have to have the volume on an even number, it is probably a mild case of OCD, which we all have right?
So yeah that's when I think my time on this beautiful planet will end, and I'm happy with that, provided I give myself a kick in the butt and make the most of life now. Take risks financially more so, work on better friendships and relationships with friends and get to know God better!
Probably the reason I have put this expiry date on myself is the because I want to experience life after this one, maybe too soon ha. I guess though that at the end of the day it will be in God's good timing that I wither and perish.
Even so......
I have just felt like I don't want to be around people much anymore, I spent three months in Perth and for about two months of that I was by myself, so I guess I've gotten quite use to my own company and funny thing is I like it. If bored I will just read or draw something random, put some music on and zone out, or even watch movies.
I'm not sure if I'm suffering from a small case of depression maybe, I just feel the weight of expectations from family, especially my mum. Ergh.....the relationship we have is not the best, it is certainly better than it has been in the past. It has been ages ago since I spoke or saw her, the 30th of December to be precise, the day I got back from Perth. She left me a voicemail yesterday and it was like it's P******a Drinkwater your mother here yada yada......ah why does she have to leave a message like that. She takes things to heart so much, at any point while she was up my way for work she could have said hey lets grab a coffee if you're free, so easy. But as my younger sister who lives with her has said, mum has decided not to be the one to make a move. So it seems it's almost a stand off, does it have to be? I just don't know how to feel about it anymore. I haven't got the effort anymore, which I should really maintain because relationships are all about working together.
Which brings me to the idea of a relationship with a girl, not that anything has happened recently in regards to that, there has been one girl but I can't be assed getting into that now.
I continually find myself thinking that I really am better off being single! It has so many benefits, freedom in many ways that's mostly what I think of. Maybe it's the fact that I have been so independent of thought and action for so long that having someone else in the picture is going to create extra work that I can avoid. Like people think that everyone has a soulmate etc, and maybe that's true, but I think for me yes there could be someone out there, but I'll probably just let them down ha ha. So to avoid hurt on either parties side, I'd like to just remain single. I've pretty much planned a future where it's just been me, yet if I ever do make some wise financial decisions, if I can create a degree of monetary comfort for myself, I'd like to be generous with money that I can afford to give away, in whatever way possible.
I do have a giving heart and a heart for others, I just keep it closely guarded, not sure why but it seems to be how things are.
Which brings me to another thought and it's probably going to sound crazy, yet I have a degree of comfort about it. I believe deep down that I won't live past about 36, I like that number for one, because it's even and I have a thing for even numbers, so much so that I have to have the volume on an even number, it is probably a mild case of OCD, which we all have right?
So yeah that's when I think my time on this beautiful planet will end, and I'm happy with that, provided I give myself a kick in the butt and make the most of life now. Take risks financially more so, work on better friendships and relationships with friends and get to know God better!
Probably the reason I have put this expiry date on myself is the because I want to experience life after this one, maybe too soon ha. I guess though that at the end of the day it will be in God's good timing that I wither and perish.
Even so......
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